Need someone to talk with

Just want to feel free, just want to feel that I can control my life, that I have the choice of doing what I really want, just need time to think, just need time to see if I could live without you and how does it feel to miss you so…

Don’t want to feel sad, don’t want to remember, don’t want to… because I’m strong on the surface, not all the way through and I’ve cried enough tonight.

Going outside to see that being myself it gets harder than it seemed, but I won’t be the one that gives up, not this time. This time I will go through until I find what I’m looking for... just trying to convince myself...